Goodbye 2008

Hello 2009. As always, I find myself welcoming another year, hoping it will be better than the last. Though I'd have to say, that 2008 was better than 2007 and 2007 better than 2006, it still ranked pretty low on the scale of best years ever. The past month has been pretty good, good is all relative though. I find myself ending another year with a different person than the last year. I am wondering if this is going to be a pattern, I sure as hell hope not. In some ways, I find it hard to fathom that it's already been three years since I had what I'd call a traditional Christmas. I suppose I hate the holiday more now, because it reminds me that "we" are a broken family, rather than the every day hustle and bustle.

For once though, I am looking forward to 2009. I'll wrap up my graduate school (Yeah!) and begin living again, I hope. I also hope to get Serena more involved this year, soccer and a summer program so that she's around more kids. I think this year will also bring a lessened sense of hostility towards Shane (my ex-husband) as I am confident that I have found a person who believes that I am worth it. I know I've got a long ways towards letting go and letting bygones be bygones but I hope I am getting closer towards that path. It seems as though I am pretty hopeful these days. Well off to bed. Goodbye wake me up when 2009 begins.